Children

My children are such amazing wonderful beings. They brighten my day like nothing else. I have so many vivid memories, just from this last week, of times of joy with them. Last Friday, we were all just playing on the floor laughing. Monday, I watch Micah grin and grin at her big brother, she is in love. I think she'd marry him, if she could. Yesterday, Tyler and Micah played in Micah's crib - watching the mobile over and over again. Today was so difficulty for me (very little sleep last night) and my kids were angels!! ANGELS!!! Did they know? I explained it to Tyler. "Mommy doesn't feel good so I really need your help today." Tyler played with Micah tons, he would share his cars with her or (if he didn't feel like sharing) he would get her a different toy to play with. Tons of hugging, patting and loving today. Tyler was very obedient, fun, funny AND took a nap today. (all of us did). Micah was her normal "easy baby" self, just hanging out smiling all day long!!

In spite of the fact that I am totally enjoying my children, AND the fact that I can clearly see that they are going to be great playmates and friends; I am totally done having kids. Don't get me wrong - I would love to have three little munchkins around - but I can't do this a third time. I can't be pregnant again, I can't go through all this allergy stuff again, and I CERTAINLY cannot survive this insomnia again, that is cause by my children disrupting my sleep. I PRAY hard that Micah will soon learn to sleep through the night and then so will I, so that I can survive. Please PRAY PRAY PRAY for a baby that sleeps through the night soon.